Wow deep - @deltadio! - Well done for making the financial commitment and I hope you find a way to break through into production. My recommendation to you would be to start small use as many short cuts as you can to begin with and share stuff to seek feedback. There are lots of people in the community here as well as tutors that are receptive to being asked to give feedback. It never ceases to amaze me the considerations others identify when I seek feedback, that help me realise some areas to work on.
I feel your pain having spent whole evenings listening to kicks, or over analysing the little details that end up making minimal different to the end result, losing inspiration and missing out on things that could make big differences to the track.
Also, I personally found it beneficial trying to follow along a course that runs through the end to end process and copy the tutor throughout - I end up finding multiple tangents (e.g. different samples or different synth sounds that speak to me), resulting something totally different from the tutor.
Anyway - I hope that helps and I wish you the best with your aspirations